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Healing Lupus...with Compassion 

Asha Frost - Monday, October 06, 2014

 

 

When I was first stepped onto this healing journey in my early 20's, one of the first books I encountered was Louise Hay's, "You Can Heal Your Life." The first page I turned to was her thoughts on the emotional causes of Lupus.  And it said: "A giving up. Better to die than stand up for one's self. Anger and punishment."

Whew.  It was intense.  And in all honesty, at the time, did not really resonate fully.

And then I lived life a little more and saw my tendency to give up my power when someone was more domineering than I was, or not speak up when my whole heart was calling me to. For me, it seemed easier to submit, to be quiet, to not create any conflict or rock the boat.  And so, I sacrificed myself.  Over and over again, I sacrificed myself.  The truth of who I was.  The gut feelings that I had.  The pains in my heart that told me to say no.  I only listened when convenient. 

I sacrificed myself.

I remember turning my attention back to that book and read the healing affirmation that went with healing Lupus.

"I speak up for myself freely and easily. I claim my own power. I love and approve of myself. I am free and safe." 

That felt light.  It felt freeing.  It felt good.  So I said it, every day.  I said it in the morning when I first woke up and at night before bed.  I repeated it over and over and over again.

And nothing changed. 

I tried to be positive.  I tried to immerse myself in all things "good" trying to banish any negative thoughts that I might have.  But it didn't work.  And I would get so frustrated at all of the people who would say: "You created this you know!  If you just didn't have those negative thoughts in the first place, this never would have happened."  The New Age community is filled with these messages.  Change your thoughts and your life is instantly transformed!  If this was true, how come my thoughts alone weren't healing my illness?

Every time I would have a flare up, I would get paranoid at what I was thinking.  I would blame myself, feeling like somehow, I have created this and no matter how much healing I do, how many supplements I take, how much I rest and eat perfectly, I am still sick!  How is this possible!  I was trying to stand up for myself, I was trying to speak my truth, I was trying to walk my talk.  And I was still sick.

I finally discovered that no matter how many affirmations I said, no matter how many greens I ate, no matter how positively I thought, it did not make any difference if I did not have a deep compassion for all of the suffering I had gone through.  To truly feel it *all*.  And that having this deep compassion for all of the perceived negative things, allowed me to truly love myself deeper.

Instead of fighting it with "a positive thought" or dismissing it to be more "spiritual", I needed to fully and completely acknowledge that my body has been in some serious pain and I could not just wish that all away or move "forward" with positive thinking. I needed to acknowledge the suffering and be with it. In all of its ugliness and darkness.  Quite frankly, I needed to feel that being sick sucks and wrap all of that suffering and truth in compassion and love.

For me, self-love comes from this compassion.  It does not come from telling myself that I love myself, or denying when I have felt dark, ugly or sad.  It comes from the deep feeling and acknowledgment of how things are in each moment.  It is not just words, it is not just affirmations.  It is the sacred vibration of compassion that rings true to every cell and fibre of my being.  This is what I am dreaming into being for myself each and every day.   The suffering, the pain, the ugly, the light, the rainbow, the magic.  I have compassion for it all. 

And when I think of those beautiful affirmations that Louise Hay suggested, I think that after all of these years, perhaps now I can say those affirmations with a deeper sense of truth. Some days, it will feel more real than others, and that is okay, for I am still learning.

I have compassion for all of the times I did not stand up for myself and bowed down.  I have compassion for all of the times that I said "yes" when I really meant "no".  I have compassion for the times my gut told me one thing and I ignored it and my heart ached. I have compassion for my physical body who has suffered lifetimes of pain.  And I have a deep compassion for every single person who has suffered in some way and who is wanting to heal.  I have been there.  I am there.  I see you.  I am you.  And we can heal together.

A. xo

This fall, I am offering some very special healing classes to those wanting to do some deep healing work.  These classes are for those who are dealing with something of a more chronic nature.  Something that you are continuously working through whether physical, emotional or spiritual, that needs a deeper sense of love and compassion to heal it.  Each class will be comprised of hands on healing, sharing, meditation, ceremony, intuitive messaging and developing of your own medicines and healing abilities to carry the healing into your daily life.  Class size will be limited to 6 participants.  Class information is found here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1456861104597864/ Contact me if you are interested in this divine healing opportunity to heal your life at asha@my-homeopath.com

 

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